views through the myopic lens

2012-02-09T06:19:00.000-08:00

I saw a girl--not one with a meek figure
You can imagine her as an athlete : she looked strong.

And she was crying.

I guess she has been hurt, on the inside.

I can't really say a single word of comfort, so I walked away.

"Sakit tentu ada obatnya, tapi sakit hati sulit obatnya"--from an Indon artist.

I'm sorry I did that to you.

Reasons---or excuses

2011-12-27T03:45:00.000-08:00

Yes, your favourite line. Unfortunately, you know neither.

Been some time since I last saw you, friend. Heard a lot about you, and me, too, in school.
Yes, you.

I cannot simply deny the fact that you are a smart person. Manipulative and loquacious--
Kudos to the denigration : it seems like a lot of them has bought your story.
We're not as foolish as you think.

"Last badge's EXCOs are just useless. Well, ynnow, they have loads of conflicts with me, that's why I hold no posts."
"This GYLS Report 2010? I did that all alone. No one from the last badge has helped me"
"See this awesome Itouch? I got this in 2009 as Leader of the Week"

Lies, lies, and lies.

Such a shame that you are aware of the presence of integrity while spinning calumnies after calumnies. Well, I have no idea if you apprehend the whole idea of integrity. HAHA, yes no maybe--once again, your favourite tag line.

Looking at all your lies--your target is me. Not the EXCOs for PPS 2010, not us who went to GYLS 2010 and tasked to do the report together, nor the fabricated story of being the Leader of the Week.

Remonstrating me while obliquely making others believe that you are better.

Grow up.

You think being an iconoclast is idiosyncratic, you believe that by telling stories you're going to dampen my spirits, spoil my reputation;

you think by being this : you'll be happy while gaining pre-eminence.

Grow up.

And for those, those whom we trusted and had faith in, and who listened and whimsically changes your minds as easily as how she snaps her fingers---I am disappointed but not surprised.

I am not here to start a war, nor am I here to disregard you as a genius in schemes, having a bifurcate face and your well-hidden superficiality. And I'm not here to reveal the truth--we swore that it'll be confidential during every interview. And confidential it is.

All these started with you not getting the award in GYLS 2009 and a phone call from me to join PPS.

I do not want to blame you for being vindictive and revengeful. After all, that's how you make friends and divide the world into right or wrong, black and white, good and bad.

I wish you good luck in your life after secondary school, and please----

Grow up.

Signed, Your disappointed nemesis.

2011-12-08T10:41:00.001-08:00

"You're too kind. Stop being that kind."

Well I suppose if more people stop saying that to kind souls and start being a lil' bit nicer to those around them,

this world, will be a better place to live in.

"We do not need the votes of the Chinese and the Indians"

2011-12-05T10:11:00.000-08:00

(Datuk Johari Bin Abdul Ghani--Umno Titiwangsa Division Chief. Currently top my list of Stupidest Malaysian Politician. Should appear in Reader's Digest world's most ridiculous politicians.)

Joke of the Year

"Kita tidak perlu undi Orang Cina dan Orang India"

*claps*

That's the biggest joke I've ever heard, so far. There may be more, seeing them ruling the country with that signature 'tidak apa' attitude. Oh wait, or maybe they don't even know how to rule a country, tidak apa-lah.

Dear Datuk, winning votes by segregating people into races--is totally a kick in your own nuts. This backfires the big SATU MALAYSIA vision, and it is so obvious that this dictum carries a meaning too deep for you to understand.

First, by saying that you can win the seat by gaining the votes of a certain race : everybody knows it's a mistake. The mistake lies in here : why is the government trying to win votes using tenuous ways instead or serving the people and earn deserving votes? The Malaysian people trust the government to flourish their lives with the income taxes they pay, but instead they see their money gone perished; schemes of winning votes are so inept, that it becomes a joke itself. The case of giving out RM100 in CASH to every school kid in government schools is one of the many examples. I mean, c'mon, "who uses RM100 on books?"---(a status on Facebook by a Malaysian student, with a high number of likes : 61) A government who truly wants to serve their people would use better ideas to benefit them : conduct a survey,interviews, etc, work alongside with educators and book publishers/retail sellers, find out which book gives intellectual benefits to students, giving out VOUCHERS of various bookshops. In a nutshell, do the difficult but proper way. I do not have the solutions myself--it's your job instead, Datuk.

Walao giving out cash to students are like giving roses to peanuts. Or walnuts. whatever. Even common sense can tell that.

And let me conclude that with the explicit truth : Our government is on the wrong track.
You, are on the wrong track, Datuk. With that tidak-apa attitude, I guess this is not a thing to be worried about. So don't worry too much, the people are doing all the worrying for you.

Secondly, true, they have all the statistics in their area. This means they do have manpower to get these number. Seeing you announcing the figures of different races so succinctly, I know I'll never have a government who lead us into cultivating acceptance among different races. If and only if they could instead find out what's troubling the people, and have figures to come out with the top-ten improvements GREATLY needed. The first one should be public toilets---and I strongly believe that with the amount of taxes each father pays it's enough to make public toilets usable.

and the most erroneous and disturbing thing is :

these people in our government are taking us for granted.

"Kita tidak perlu undi Orang Cina dan Orang India."

Let me tell you this, dear Datuk : yes, Malaysians may be voting their government, and you can still buy diamond ring$ for your wife, or build mansion$ with our money, our sweat and blood. We may not be capricious enough to change this country : many of us, the younger ones, are perished in your dirty game of politics. An increase in juvenile delinquency highlights the failure part of our education system. You may think most of us are disillusioned with your public affability with the people. Good luck. Good luck for the upcoming elections then.

The people are greatly disappointed, but this is their home and their family. That's one thing I would very much like you to know : we still love this country. But don't be the Grim Reaper that tears this beautiful land apart, and a friendly reminder--you're already halfway there. Any more of the 'tidak-apah' side in governing this state may lead to more unfathomable-s, you and I clearly know this. The question is on how much you're willing to accept to continue being accepted as the government.

Stop the Jingoism. Start the Job.

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I'll end this with a joke since all of us are jokers. I still have a lot to learn from you tho, Datuk.

"During National Day I cried when I see the fireworks. Not because I'm super patriotic or what--but because I see my taxes blasting off in the sky every year without fail, just like that."

Thanks to the abolishment of ISA I can safely say I am safe, unless, of course, a promise is not kept, again. Or rather it is nothing but a political fraud.

2011-12-03T06:54:00.000-08:00

I still remember the day

You said I deserve better.

Thank you friend, you're right all along.
I truly deserve better. And I'm...
I'm truly happy that I've let go.

The Little Things we care everyday

2011-08-29T10:42:00.000-07:00

Yes, I do care.

Caring is sharing.

I care for you, said your former boyfriend,

who left you in the dark

when you start to see light.

Obama-care ;

"I dont care if they say I don't

I do"

Yes, there's something in this world which we care

Your parents, your friends, your hair, your blood, your body

Your soul, or maybe soulmate.

I care. I care, and I really do.

I care for my future, and I'm ready to give up anything for dreams bigger than what I'm having now.

I care for the task I'm given, or the duty I'm responsible to.

I care for the future of my country, and for this I really do even if everyone says I'm crazy.

I care for the uncle who plays his Er-Hu dutifully on the streets everyday, singing with his toothless grin.

I care for the mum who lost his son, and his body covered only by a sheet.

My heart ache when I read about girls being raped casually.

I cried when a boy is not buried when he's dead, just because they could not find a grave site in Somalia
I teared when I see the conditions in Madina Camp, where refugees crowd in makeshift shelters.

Yup, this statement says it all

I am no hero, neither am I a heroin.

and No, I not here to say I will become one.

But there's one thing that keeps me wondering : if we, as young people, as youths

as the generation with so much passion and energy

and when we know little about failure
knowing that courage is not the absence of fear,
but the judgement that something else is more important than fear
If, and if only if,
everyone of us
care less about our hair-do
and care more on the suburban children who are struggling to continue their education
care less on where we're going to chiil-ax
and care more on those without a roof above their heads.
care less about our broken friendships and failed relationships
and focus on building a brighter future for our children, and change what's needed to be changed
fix what's needed to be fixed.
care a little less on the clothes we wear, and what the others might think of us
and take a good look at the world around us, without the judging glasses we used to wear
care less on the amount of money we have
and care more on the amount of love we can give, especially to strangers
.......................................................................................................................

This world, regardless on how bad the world leaders are
how unpromising the economy might be
how dissapointing the government could be
or how hard life is to you----
----will certainly be much, much, much more better than it is.

I'm not here to say : look here, bro
stop being that selfish and think your life's a total crap
nor am I here to say : see I C-A-R-E.
no, there's still a long way there for me.
But I'm ready to take up the challenge
to be reponsible for changes
to care less on what I do not have, or do not possess
and to help the others, who might be experiencing more pain than me
To look at the world from the underneath of a glass bottom boat
and to lead a life's journey with a sense of purpose;
knowing that what I have and what I do not have makes a huge difference to the people around me.

"If not me, then who?
If not now, then when?"

Let's start this now, Li Shing.

Appraciating the wonders of little wonderful things in the midst of the hectic J1 life

2011-07-21T04:56:00.000-07:00

All these things that's happening around me when I was happily typing away in front of my keyboard

Someone staying back in college for sports training
Some cat got bitten by ants
A young girl tying up her loosen shoe lace
and another one probably enjoying chips on her desk after 3 hours of mugging.
Some bottle of 100 plus got into a package to be delivered.
Some silly guy poured coffee over the table
~~Some.~~..................Ok I run out of list, temporarily.

......................................................................................................................................................

You get the idea. Randomness.

Randomness is not a good thing entirely, but it is not a bad thing.

Reasons for why it is not a good thing
1. It makes your points in GP essays vague
2. Some markers are too dumb to read between the lines and appreciate randomness

3. Random jokes make othere shiver, and yet it is a good thing cos' it lowers the Earth's temperature (I'm gonna include this in the later part of this post, T-HEE)

4. People tend NOT to give you the reaction you so want them to, and THAT LOOK.
5. And sometimes, just sometimes, random people are being labelled as dorks.

and Here's the list I very much prefer more.

The awesome litany of reasons why being random is super duper fun!!
1. Randomness lowers down the Earth temperature (refer above statement)
2. Super lame jokes make me laugh without a reason, and it is fun replying people " I HASN'T A SINGLE DAMN IDEA!!" when people ask you why u laugh, and when they give you THE LOOK.
3. Funny people are random, and random people are funny.
4. Random people are smart, and smart people are the most random bunch of people on Earth I've met.
5. They just make you smile and laugh, whole-heartedly, without you expecting it.
6. You got a chance to give those random peeps THE LOOK, and Laugh your head out after that. (I don't understand why people need to laugh their arses off but head seems fine to me, after all the mouth has a smaller proximity to the head)
7. Well, you can write about anything you want, anytime, anywhere! Even when you're on some escalator carrying groceries with your both hands, you'll be random enough to pen some ideas in some corner of your brain.
8. Because being random is being me.
9. Being random makes a person stop, listen, think and feel. Most people I know jump into conclusions faster than the speed of an airplane, before others have the chance to finish their sentence. That is how random people tend to create the most incredible ideas and inventions in the world.
10. sometimes random people are just too lazy to categorize their stuff
11. Randomness is part of creation, just as failure is part of success
12. Random people hate unexplained, authoritative rules. They just hate the idea of having rules in the first place. I understand the important of rules, but, hey, some of them are really redundant.
13. They see the link, the connection to every single thing around them. The awareness, which many do not possess, honestly, has make dreams after dreams into realities.

Which I randomly want to add in two points to the previous list :
6. Because the lack of randomness has wreck dreams which could very well be a reality.
7. Because, un-random people are dead boring people to be around (Only 1% of the people I falls in this category)

Let's count how many people we meet in life that is random enough to notice the subtle yet beautiful events around them. (tiny things often are..just look at me XD)

I myself, having a radar for randomness enough to say that... most of the people I met,

ARE RANDOM ENOUGH TO BE AWESOME :)

(teehee)

Of frivolity and fundamentality

2011-07-16T04:43:00.000-07:00

Let me start this off with a few scenarios

A person spending more on clothes rather than books.
A company investing more in advertisements than improvements on a good.
A wedding planned so furiously to make it grander than the other counsin's wedding while all the couple need is each other after the ceremony.

I did not imply that a bit of frills and trills every now and then is BAD, nor it is malicious till we need to stay away from it.

Did anyone notice how simplicity seem to bring out the very core of an action, an event, and every story to happen? I have not the wisdom yet to do so.

But one thing I do notice is that...the people
more and more people are give more attention to what is outside rather than what is inside.
Just look at the amount of people trying so hard to look nice
to dress up
and tonnes of make up on their faces
while forgetting that what pleases someone is not how you look, but what you are.

See those advertisements around us!
How many of them tell the truth? Yes, but how much of the truth?

Look at the effort lecturers put on the slides! I begin to see more and more animation PLUS cartoons, and is there a giraffee in the economics lecture slides?

Weddings are weddings, and now we have wedding planners too? oh and they are paid? for some lavish stuff? Haha yeah some people just want to enjoy the wealth they earned or they had born with. Look at the royal wedding, and how much more people yearn to have this kind of wedding. Some even wed for the sake of some lavish weddings and a lifelong opportunity to spend without having to think twice seeing that their prospective spounses are rich, or maybe they can file up a divorce or something.........
And yet the most important thing about a wedding is the tying up of two individuals.
Yes I do agree appearance do more that what it should at times, and people appreciate you when you look nicer, when things look nicer, when presentations are more graphical...

But somehow I think most efforts are wasted on it. Sad to say, I can't help but to do the same thing, maybe not that much effort, but still.

The simple things amidst the complexity of life

2011-06-21T10:06:00.000-07:00

I once was told
life's greatest gifts come in the most unexpexted ways
I tend to anticipate, plan, scheme, or even dream
but never was satisfied.

Is this what I really need? Or is this only what I want, and never meant to me mine?

Life's greatest girfts, indeed, are presented in the most unexpected ways that we may never imagine.

I had been craving for chocolate since last month, eating different brands of chocolate never satisfy me. I chose to avoid eating those guilty chocolates when my weight meter shoot up.
But still, I kept dreaming of chocolates, every now and then seeing those bastards wrapped in beautiful wrappers from afar.
Well my empty money pockets indeed helped a lot throughout this agonizing...mission.

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My friend, who had returned from home, Bali, she gave me a biscuit,
somehow it looked a bit like..those biscuits in Ipoh, Heong Pieh. XD
Thanking here mindlessly, I tucked it away, and it joined the mess and books on my table.

Funny, how your tummy rumbles in the middle of the night, and NO
No mamak stalls around, no mamak kaki-s, NO BREAKING OF CURFEW
Hah! That Bali biscuit!

*took a bite*
ZOMG CHOCOLATE INSIDEE <3 :DDD

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Funny how frustrating it was for me to find the right kind of chocolate for my gluttonous tummy
when
one truly satisfying moment came on a faithful, tummy-rumbling night.

I find it hard to forget the simple joys like this, and decided to spread it, my first baby step is to post it in this bloggie.
Simple joys, they really do exist, don't they??

I'm keeping my tomorrow as a surprise, then *wink*

the UNFRIEND button

2011-06-06T18:46:00.000-07:00

This scribbler believe
that Hatred is a common thing in human. Blame it on the Human Nature.

This scribbler also believe that
there are times one can forget the pass, forgive the sinner who has hurt him/her unintentionally,
and not let himself/herself suffer by continuing the hatred.

Apparently I was wrong. This world is so much different from what I thought it is.

Facebook, as usual, always find ways to improve itself. In so that icons and features are added ever now and then that those seem so redundant to me, in everyway not an IT geek at all.

Well, here comes the 'UNFRIEND' button. Unwittingly, a friend in your list will just unfriend you, or you can do the same thing to your friend list. Convenient enough, to clear your friend lists, or to send a clear message to the unfriend-ed target of yours :

"WE ARE NOT FRIENDS ANYMORE."

It's kind of absurd in a way, friendships can be destroyed by a button in facebook. I can't bring myself to say I am perfectly nonchalant to these situations.

Shameless as ever, I should admit that I am a facebook addict, ever since stranded on a tiny dot island. Not many friends here, a fact I should be aware of being a newbie in a new environment.

Has everybody forgot that friendships are not built in a day? Forgeiveness is always around in a corner? And it is us who choose to embrace hatred instead of forgiveness?

I should say, I can't be sure myself.

But one thing I am sure : she has given me a very, very, very painful way to absorb my lesson.

By reminding me : once you've hurt me, you'll never get back the love of a friend that you yearn so much from me.

Never, never, never.

Tales from Bubble Tea-s

2011-05-30T01:42:00.000-07:00

I like Bubble Tea.

In fact, me and my roomie share the same passion : the loyal love for bubble tea. Mind you, she has been addicted for the pass 4 years, and for me, well, only recently, not yet an amateur like her.

The cheapest one we can get here, hmm, is about $1.30, and some cost more, some even have their own franchise brand. The one we're really, really attached with is the one in Parkway.
*Ipoh's bubble tea costs RM2 each, if you're talking about that shops opposite my Secondary School*

So there it goes, if you go to Parkway, buy me one bubble tea kay? Deal.

Sometimes I like bringing home the two cups, sometimes finishing mine before returning. But one difference between me and her is : I always, always finish my bubble tea first before her.

Which leads me to a thought in my head, sigh, here goes another S1.30 in 5 minutes. Mind you, hers can last for one whole hour.

And sometimes I wonder, how many things in life I had not savour, really taste what's inside, and taken for granted.
Countless, once again. Like the flowers being bought, given and thrown away when they withered.

.....................................
But still, bubble tea rocks when u drink it illegally on buses. :D

Jogging along the shore line at ECP--you knew you're blessed

2011-05-29T04:20:00.000-07:00

Ingrid is probably wondering
why this fellarh here choose to jog in the evenings
rather than mornings
or maybe afternoons

well, here's the thing Ingrid :D
I like jogging in the evenings at ECP because :

1. those are the times kids play
It reminds me so much of seeing the world for the first time, getting excited easily, and appreciated the fact that your parents are always there with you
2. you can see couples cuddling each other
old or young, they're all cute together! and those weird stuff people do to their darlings are just funny :)
3. a group of ladies walking and having fun together
means being single is cool! reminds me i have a bunch of girlfriends to bitch around :D
4. dogs
aren't these creatures the most adorable thing you've ever seen on Earth? some of them even wear SHOES! some look like their owners. oh look, there's one chasing after a stick on the beach, just beautiful.
5. people
you meet different people, some jogging some running some grabbing water bottles while huffing and puffing but all are having their relaxing time, if you call jogging a relaxing time, that is.
6. clothes
it is a rather bizarre thing to do but i love admiring clothes. this is the time when u see nike running shorts, adidas singlets and maybe a few school PE shirts here and there. oh not forgetting those who actually come here just to stroll after a hard day at work. Wouldn't it be a pleasure to see such people in their beach shorts and formal wear?
7. shoes
ahh, a bliss. i just love shoes, just love those shoes, this is the time you'll see nike adidas and all sorts of running shoes with colors beyond imaginations. some even have different colors of shoe laces. some single ladies might take off their heels and put on a pair of sandals, some ladies with their mateys have to have their heels on (no hard feelings) while men simply wore sandals, slippers or bare foot
8. family
Ingrid, this is the best part of all the evening jogs. Being away from my family makes me realized how much i miss them and how muc time spent on other stuff rather than enjoying the moments together. see those kids, see those proud moms with their eyes glittering everytime they see their children running, laughing; see those dads tirelessly chasing after their kids, and trying hard to ctach them when they trip and fall. see those kids, playing like they've never played before, and they've never build a sand castle before, and they've never had so much fun in their lives before.
evenings re the best time to see families, since mornings are filled with hectic schedules and classes. which is, for me, kind of pathetic but nonetheless important to survive;mornings are too beautiful to be wasted.

There you go, Ingrid, the answers to your question on the way to Fair price. Thank you for walking with me, that i know i'll never walk alone in the dark pavements, no matter how safe it appears to be.
And you'll probably notice more things too, if you've jog in the evenings. ;)

Down the road....this time, a cross road

2011-05-14T11:02:00.000-07:00

Dear friends,

We know, this is the time,
where hard decisions are made
where choices bloom like forever for some
and the others who might think they're not that lucky to have choices
believe this : you have.
When all dissapointments flood up all the way to your knees
and when you think the world is unfair
when you feel all efforts and hard work all along; unrecognized
when all your hopes and dreams seem to dissapear and you're lost
Fear not,
those dreams are yours forever, they might be blur, but they're yours.
Even if the whole world thinks you are a loser,
without scholarships, without going through what the others think you should go through as a brilliant student
show them this : you're amazing
Amazing enough to challenge the norms and stereotypes
Amazing enough to bounce back after rejections
Amazing enough to say : I'll prove you wrong, and there's nothing between me and my dreams.
Count your blessings, every single one.
Not forgetting to look for doors of opportunities too, you might not know you'll create your own path
and write your own pages of stories with the most creative ways that no one could ever imagine
Smile : cause you're destined for something wonderful.

For those who had been blessed by one of the most valuable gifts in this world
Yes, it means everything for you, and I'm proud of you. :)
People might get jealous when you got what they eyed for
But don't worry, you're destinied to have it
Treasure it, hold it with both your hands
And don't forget to thank whoever's up there for this
Being a scholar isn't easy, but there are thousands out there who wish to be in your position
Count your blessings, every single one.
Some might say your future is planned and structured,
But you can always choose to go the other paths if you want to
Smile : cause you're destined for something wonderful.

The difference doesn't seem that prominent after all : we're all destined for something wonderful.

So I guess all of us are blessed in one way or another, don't we?
=)

All the best, and let's fight this war now.
My battle to stay awake studying is.....................
..................I think I need an army of coffee for that.

Love, Li Shing :D

Of going forward or hugging on to the past

2011-04-17T03:08:00.000-07:00

Well upon reading this title, many would say : GO FORWARD
look forward, cos' your past is your past, future is there, now you have the present to draw your future. Your past, is a history, and it is a ghost now, don't let your shadows swallow your dreams.

what if your future is so uncertain, you are so shaky and your confidence level is so low that it disturbs you so much?
what if your current situation is so bad, till you didn't notice the change in you, and you thought everything is ok, but in fact it isn't?
what if the change in you is for the worse, but you thought it is for the better, and you find the change had let you blend perfectly into the crowd now?
what if you're tired of fighting and being different?
what if you realized the values you hold so dearly are being challenged, and you thought of giving up?
what if you were so strong before this, and now you;re on the brink of giving up and breaking down?
what if you finally realize the world does not evolve around you, even, ironically, many assure you that you are the world and you have the universe at the back of your hands?
what if the place you're in slash both your confidence and ego into half, or even more?
what if you used to be told that you can do everything, as long as you have the passion and heart, but not when you're here, and it is impossible to do everything?
what if in the midst of trying so hard to change for the future, putting in effort to do well in the present, we forgot our past?
what if one day, we lose all the love ones we know? literally and metaphorically?
what if we hold on to our past so dearly and you just don't want to lose every speck of you in the past--your friends, attitude, naive-ness, and all?

Yes it is indeed a battle for everyone in every stage of his life. but somehow, we know, there's a rainbow somewhere ahead. the only thing I can do, for now, is to pray, and have faith.
Tolerate the turbulence, tolerate the pressure.

and forgive me if I've ignore you, friend. Your presence in my heart is of utmost importance. And I want you to know this : I'll never forget anyone who crossed my path, even if I forget their names, their faces, I won't forget how they had impacted my life.

Chinese New Year -- the BUNNY series

2011-02-05T08:48:00.000-08:00

This Chinese New Year, I learn that :
1. We grow up every year
2. Our parents grow old every year
3. CNY isn't about gambling and receiving angpaos ONLY.... well those are the highlights nonetheless
4. CNY is about giving and sharing.
5. Its about gathering family members, cousins, relatives, long-lost relatives, long-distances uncle aunties.........
6. Its about uniting families
7. It unites every person in this country.. I once saw a Malay family stopping by to help a Chinese family whose car broke down due to too much firecrackers and lion dances....(ok maybe not because of that but the car broke down for some reasons)
8. I never knew family members could be separated one day..... until I realized it.
9. And family can always reunite, no matter how big it is
10. And commercials with family reunions makes me teary.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR. and I know how precious it is when we have family reunions.
Treasure yours while it lasts.
And this is the 2nd year... since you've left us.

I miss you, grandma.Your Hainanese Chicken Rice always beats the rest.

Things I miss while growing up reluctantly

2011-02-03T07:22:00.000-08:00

1. Computer games
2. Gameboy
3. PS2,PS1 games (we dont have X-box or IPads or IPods or every I- in the world)
4. big red packets collected and counted every year after Chinese New Year
5. Barbie Dolls (yeah I do love them, the dressing up part..wonder why on earths some girls try to act tough and deny they HATE barbie dolls while actually its a mini training for their fashion sense and imaginations?)
6. The havoc we create playing in my cousins' room
7. My dear,younger version of cousins, without their myopic eyes
8. The younger version of me, and they shy-er version of me
9. The ridiculously funny version of me,who crack jokes every now and then without minding any consequences (as if jokes bring consequences--then)
10. The time I have to punch keys on the piano--as if I'm Maksim
11. The time I had short hair and need not worry about what to do with longer air and less shampoo is used. And no hair clips or whatever accessories needed
12. The time when I light up Lanterns and candles--even if it's not Mooncake Festival
13. The time I know nothing about the world
14. The time we went over to neighbors' house and had tea, as a routine every week.
15. The time I know absolutely nothing on anything.
16. The time I think spongebob is a great PS2 game and played for the whole day.
17. The passion for cute lil' toys.
18. My own personal bias towards pink stuff, and everything from Fairyland or Disneyland... haha
19. My dad who loves playing with me,even without a toy, and now we speak way less than we used to.
20. The days I thought everything is possible...until I was told to shut down the day dreams and focus on reality.

I really wish,
even if the others say "move on!" or "that would not happen" or even "C'mon, stop all those bullshit, everyone knows time would not turn back!"
that Time could be turned back.
and I don't want to grow up...ever.

But reality bites, it does, however light or hard it does.
and I realized that a lot of us had been shaped into individuals who often denies what truly lies inside us,
as we grow up and learn and realize we have to change for the better
and to suit the demands of the ever-so dynamic, demanding world.
Saddest part is, few of us realize we've changed. Only when we were told,
we asked ourselves : have we? Oh really? well that's me.
And lose the little spark of gold in us every now and then as we continue denying what's in us.

You see, the world is a cruel place after all.
And it's all up to us whether to make this world a better place or to join in the cruel clan, like we're doing now.

smart and stupid?

2010-11-06T07:30:00.000-07:00

if someone says "YOU'RE SMART"
smile, thank him and walk away
and think
who's the smart one? you? him? or both??

if someone says "YOU'RE STUPID"
smile, thank him and walk away too
and think
who's the stupid one? you? him? or both?

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

how i wish answers come as easy as reading nursery rhymes.
lucky for us, we have something between our ears : the brain.

and this reminds me i have to start using it, and do a lot of THINKING....

high time i you need some exercise now, oh brainy...

Does color really matters?

2010-09-15T18:57:00.000-07:00

Your hair's black, your eyes are blue, your nose is super flat and big

Does that really matters?

You like mutton curry, hate belacan (no Malaysian would hate that..as far as I'm concern) and another only eats salads for dinner

Does that really matters?

You only go for church services on Sundays, you burn incenses before altars, and another believes in no one but himself or herself

Does that really matters?

From young, our generation had been constantly hammered with an understanding that we are always superior over another. We learnt how to discriminate, prejudge, misunderstand, and fight for our rights. We identify differences swiftly, in fact with a speed faster than anyone else. Those differences are thought to have drifted us apart, carrying us away and away from each other, creating chaos.

Come to think about it, how about uniforming the whole country? Have one belief, one religion, and the same political view?

..................................

................................................

We will not be Malaysians.

Malaysia is cherished for her diversities, her uniqueness in creating a harmonious country regardless of different races living together. Our fore fathers bonded us together before gaining independence. Be it Chinese, Malays, Indians, Baba Nyonyas, we were one.

And it occurs to me that, we can be united again.

Differences are not intended to separate, to alienate. We are different precisely in order to realize our need of each other. Without differences, there would not be variations. Imagine a dull scene with only the same kind of people wearing the same kind of clothes, speaking only from one perspective.

Dull, indeed. Monotonous and boring, if you asked me.

An eye for an eye make the whole world blind, so why don't we remove the glasses we wear to differentiate others, stop comparing and start loving more?

And... stop asking for our races when we're ticking forms. We're Malaysians, ~~you dummy~~ isn't that obvious?

Happy Malaysia Day, from a Malaysian

mah ownn prob. at the age of 17

2010-06-15T02:39:00.000-07:00

i haft onee probblemm
thhat is

procastinatin',peeps, proccastinatin'

sighh. hhate it off curse... but still... welll... look at FUNNAY FOONG'S and LI YI'S blogg
both stated theree : LI SHING DID NOT WAKE UP EVEN THOUGH HER FRIGGIN' ALARM WOKE EVERYONE UP

thatt's kinda.... ~~an honour~~. HMMM

the story of a fool.

2010-05-02T04:37:00.000-07:00

battles are not always won.
everyday is an uphill battle for everyone. and it is not easy battling. the preparation. the Armour. the spears and swords.
but why battle? asked an ordinary pleasant to a soldier.
you know you'll lose your life anytime.
whenever there's victory, it isn't all yours. people are rejoicing your victory while you are preparing for your next battle.
whenever there's a defeat, you are the one to be blamed.
why? shouldn't we fill our life with pleasant and happy memories? living the fullest out of life? enjoying every second of it while you can?
you're a fool. literarily. nobody wants to take risks and serve. not anymore. c'mon, be a sober. no one cares what you do.

the soldier replied :
although battles are tough, it makes me a stronger person. an temporary defeat is stronger than an evil triumph.
the difference between both of us is : I'm the one who's willing to take the risk, prepared to lose my life, than to sit at home doing nothing watching the sun and moon, watching the days passing by. idling.
i trained myself to be disciplined.
victory isn't mine. i don't need to be a claimed hero by all.
blamed by others doesn't matter for me, but the worst thing is I start blaming myself.
embracing myself with troubles than enjoying life? thats what it makes for me to stand up among the others.
BE A SOBER YOURSELF, DUDE.

oh ya, what inspire me to do what i do now, they're my family. I love them. they are the force that push me to achieve more. to do what others dreaded. they're the voices in my head that says "C'MON!! I BELIEVE IN YOU!"

so its quite pathetic for you without any family support.
thats why you're only running away when enemies are near, while i'm having all the faith i have to face them .

Old Diaries. What a Nostalgia.

2010-05-02T04:12:00.000-07:00

well i was bored after doing some spring cleaning
though its quite close to summer now.
btw we dont have four seasons in Msia. I call it spring cleaning cos this's the 1st time i clear (almost) all rubbish on my desk. HAVE TO. need to create a conductive environment for me to study.
exam's near, HELLO.

ok, so back to my diary. OLD DIARY. when i was bout 13 to 14 years to.
{ MAAAN. look at my handwriting! look at my grammar!! What's that?? oh my i was so childish!!! }

the point is, I suddenly realized I've grown so much. I havent written diaries for one year, when i was 15.
maybe this is what make life wonderful. looking back and seeing all the mistakes you've made, learnt from it, bouncing back, getting up.
all the good old stories are now history. and whether it repeats or not, it depends on us. O, what a life!!

i think i should keep track on what i do everyday from now. maybe after years and years later, when i read back all my scribblings i'll realized that what i've gone through is another learning process and I've grown up, a whole lot.

1st post in 2010

2010-04-28T04:58:00.000-07:00

i dont really know what to espress here.

"kebebasan bersuara"

ain't here.

i certainly

1.prefer diaries than blog

2.prefer ink than keyboards

3.prefer talking talking talking then typing typing typing

4.prefer not to express what i wanna say in blogs. refer to no.1

5.prefer to sleep than blogging

6.prefer to keep pictures i took in desktop than uploading it

7.prefer not to take any photos at all

8.prefer ~~studying~~ to finish my pesky homework and assignments first

9.prefer tokeep a low profile on what i do

10.prefer doing my own stuff than being commented.

thank you diary. bye bye bloggie. maybe we'll meet again someday.

oh well. maybe.

a round-up of what i did durin' the hols

2010-01-03T06:33:00.000-08:00

the ORIGINAL plan :

50% studying
30% camps and stuff
10% shopping and hanging out with UNCLES AUNTIES
5% gym
5% sleeping

the REAL THING :

50% camps and stuff
40% sleeping
5% gym (the ONLY succeeded original plan)
5% shopping and hanging out
0% studying

GOSH GOSH GOSH
what a planner. what a doer. what a ~~holiday~~. Break.

goodbye 2009.
hello ~~SPM~~ my last school year.

2009-12-26T01:11:00.001-08:00

I WANT TO SCREAM!!!!!!!!

for random reasons, for the sake of feelings, for the love of GOD

I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANTED TO SCREAM!!!!!

randomness

2009-12-16T06:28:00.001-08:00

have u ever imagine the line "a word can affect a person's life"?
well, my life had been affected much by a couple of people

like from my dad "girl u must study hard"
so i ASSUME i did.
like from my mum "CLEAM UP YOUR ROOM"
so i ASSUME i did too.
like from my brother " Deng!!"
so i start saying that word.
like from my sister "ooiih Jie dont so PI larh!!!"
so i ASSUME i didnt "pi" again.
like from best buddie ever, Judith "listening to too many people's opinion may made u lose a bit of yourself everytime"
so i start thinking like her
like from loh peng and conan "there's the one and only truth!!(in cantonese)"
like from ht chong "zhen shi de!!(vv chinese accent)"
like from junyeng :VERY FUNNY ARH"
like from joanne, oops, shukey lai "Hou guai song arh~"
so i start talking like them
like from vivian "LEE TEUKIE!!"
so i start "GEE GEE BABEE!!"
like from ah pe "ah yo AH GUA"
so i start calling yee suen "AH GUA!!"
like from zhi wei "u know.....blahblahblah and why?? blahblahblah"
so i start using her technique to communicate
like from yuen si "let your emotions flow"
so i did
like from yee sin and UL "i trust you"
so i tust myself too
like from GYLS "dont say the M-I-N-E word"
so i ASSUME i dont after the summit
like from Fee "dont say TRY. try means fail"
~~so i'll use TRY only when i wanna fail.~~ OPPPSSS, so i DONT use that word THAT often.
like from Anand "you rock!"
so i'm a rock now. HUH?
like from Jen, Aliff, Bryan, Bob, Janna, Meiyan, Sabrina, Shya, Richard, Steph, Melvin : "UNCLE AUNTY!!(actually i was the one started that)"
so i start calling everyone uncle aunty

like from my grandma, "use EVERYTHING wisely. be resourceful but wise."
so i did.
rest in peace. i did, grandma, i WILL, i SHOULD, I DO.

thanks for everything, people.

Live like we're dying??

2009-12-03T05:12:00.000-08:00

well to be honest i cant really make out what Mr Kris was trying to sing. but i can make out one thing : GOTTA LVE LIKE WE'RE DYING>>>

86,400 secs a day, wow. he really did made some calculations. if thats so.

TELL SOMEONE YOU LOVE THEM BEFORE ITS TOO LATE.
yo hear me? tell a friend now.

and i would like to tell these ppl :
- Judith
- Hui Ting
- Xin Ying
- Yee Li
- Jane Yi
- Wai Teng
- Teoh 2
- Oh Vivian
- Ong Birdo
- Poh2
- Boss
- Kar Yee
- Lei and gang
- Hayon
- and all those who crossed my path.

I LOVE YOU. =)) SARANGHE

RM20

2009-11-29T02:42:00.000-08:00

at least i spent it wisely this time
had steamboat at momo's with

1. Cheong Jun Yeng (organiser)
2. Lee Xin Ying
3. Chong Hui Ting
4. Cheong Yee Li (suppose to be but in the end, she FONG FEI KEI. hrmmppphh)

we talked, and ate, and ate, ate ate ate ate ATE ATE till next morning we wont hafta have breakfats again
HAHA. literally yeah.
well it's been some time since we can sit down and talk. like, FRIENDS. maan i was so touched when i mention FRIENDS. cos finally friendships are restored. FINALLY.
first we took stuffs and campur all into the... the wok i think. then we did the usual steamboat thing : we waited and waited, and ate after waiting, and then take again, campur again. YOU GET THE IDEA
we talked about HT's <3, and then thats when i realised I ALSO FORGOTTEN LERH. my gawdd.
then we touched on the recent activities going on, what we're doing, stuff like that.
hmm, i dont think we have time to do the HEART TO HEART talk yet, but hey, i was so proud to have friends like that, and XIN YING VOICE WAS SO SEXAYYY. still she ate tom yam. AIYKS AIYKS

well am really looking forward to another gathering like that!! notify me when there's one folks!!!

2012

2009-11-24T08:09:00.000-08:00

kind of a very hot topic these days huh?

*two thumbs up for the director and crew, and actors too*

and ht chong was, uhm. UHM. struggling with her mucus beside me throughout the movie. i was staring at the screen with a gapped expression. i mean, i REALLY HAD MY MOUTH OPEN. yeah. URGH.

so, the feedback for the movie :

1. everyone should start recycling now.

2. the black guy was HAWWTT

3. uhm. the scene when Satnam and family was not picked up for the ship? I CRIED. the moment when Satnam was kissing his lil' boy's forehead, with the killer waves behind them.when they knew their time had come, they're still blessed with the company of each family member. WOW.

4. i hate the big fat guy who only thinks of the stupid mission of keeping human population.

5. i dont quite like the Gordon guy. even though he can fly. WHAT a surprise. with specs on.

6. shasha is a guy's name in Russian? is it alexander? THANKS TO ONG BIRDO.

7. how the two pilots end up dying.i suppose it means a person's success means OTHERS sacrifice. we can NEVER be a lone ranger in life.

8. oh maan, we have only 3 years living.

9. I DONT WANNA DIE!!!

10. well, uhm, tell someone that he or she's important to you before its too late. like Harry was too late when he called his son. AWWW.

11. uhm, i think i'm gonna do that before year 2012. SCARY.

12. i would love to visit Tibet one day. beautiful place shown there. and the Lama is right, when we want something new, we must empty the old contains. something to do with change. MAKE THAT CHANGE.

13. i'm not ever switching on air-cons again. AGAIN.

14. i would run for president one day if m'sian leaders are still so NOOB in going green. HELL. so people if u dont wanna see my face on tv screens, GO GREEN. *i'm so not going to do this, urgh*

15. well, to all people out there, WE ARE EQUAL. i mean, the director shows status and money MAY define ur importance to, uhm, something. but when it comes to SOMEWHERE near end, we all are equal. see those two kids of Yuri? they lost their parents, and their driver(i forgot his name)'s family survived. HAHAA

please, please, please. i'm so not THAT desperate but at least i'm doing my job as a HUMAN telling the world to START realising how life is so dearly important. in all ways.

I WANNA WATCH 2012 AGAIN!!!!!!

we were warned.

Randomness

2009-11-21T23:00:00.000-08:00

i cant abandon my blog
no, not yet.
yeah. so. erm.
a bit of random ideas flowing out and, it was, uh. RANDOM.(yeah what else?)
so. *clear throat*

I've learnt the most important lesson from 2 amazing individuals.
*drum roll*

1. Chong Hui Ting
2. Loh Sook Peng

one thing they have in common : they make friends with random people. (randomness AGAIN huh)
uhm, no just like any Random peeps, but at least they dont carry stereotypes around. thats why they are always so HAPPY. i mean, really HAPPY.
i dont know why, but being around these people makes you NOT SO TIRED after all. they give you FULL, 100% energy. i like being with them. i LOVE being with them. in fact i love being with all my friends. TAHEEEHAHAHH

so, uhm, i love my friends, no matter who and where they come from. I LOVE THEM.

2009-11-15T06:57:00.000-08:00

WHATS TE AMO?

2009-11-09T06:35:00.000-08:00

i suddenly realised something
........................................
i MISS ht chong larh

2009-11-05T00:56:00.000-08:00

gosh i cant believe i cant hold back my tears for the 2nd time this week

i need someone to tell me
everything's fine.

TeAmo

no man is an island

2009-10-27T05:11:00.000-07:00

to : everyone out there
a mini mesg from ur limpe(limpe ka li kong)

remember this
reality is cruel and hard to be accepted
but does it really matter for some negotiations and forgiving here?
we are humans
nobody is perfect
we need each other
hurting each other in ANY WAY doesnt gonna make things patch up
the moments we share every minute is PRICELESS
another chance taping on my laptop here? yes, no, maybe.
.....................................................
...........................................
..............................
friends are as important as shoes or any other salt in this world to limpe here
there aree people who are lonely and helpless
and hopeless
without anyONE assuring them they're on the right trake,
nor share the deepest secrets or happy moments with.
so CHILL people
think about it......

i'm already on the verge of giving up =(
but everything in this world tells me that giving up is not gonna make anything better
and these crazy friends of mine?? (sorry i broke the gyls rule)
there are the most INCREDIBLE creatures in this world
holding them with both hands firmly will make me the wisest limpe ever. =)

standing up for NERDS

2009-10-24T05:24:00.000-07:00

the stereotypes for nerds :

1. they wear specs
2. they only know howta study. in fact they know nothing except to bury their heads into books
3. highly un-fashinable
4. they have a great passion when it comes to lame topics
5. only wear shorts, shirts and slippers
6. one hairstyle
7. quite prominent among crowds. u can easily spot one among the drug-addicts
8. they're always with textbooks
9. they piss u off unintentionally
10. they're single. always.

hrmphhh i heard enough of it.!!!!

why do teachers always pry on nerds?
why are nerds always being SHOOED out of da crowd?
why do people despise nerds like anything?
why, WHY?

because they are blind.
they are ignorant.
they are, in short, STUPID.

nerds are the most beautiful human being that appreciate knowledge. they have a clear focus for their future. they work HARD to achieve the results they want. they read OTHER books. they appreciate their partner. they have facebook accounts. they produce the most beautiful and exquisive meaning in life than the others. they are confident. they know howta dress PROPERLY. they are SMARTYPANTS. they know EVERYTHING. they live passionately every single day. they love sharing what they have, even though they have nothing. they are confident.

most of all, they love being themselves.
these are the REAL NERDS.

hell i'm no nerdy-nerdo but i hate people who give unkind comments bout nerds. and yeah, i'm a geek.

kick me if i sound like a jackass. you stupid.

the reasons i'm grateful of waking up every morning.

2009-09-01T05:37:00.000-07:00

1. the sky is still there
2. my mum's still SHOUTING
3. my alarm clock's still ringing, well at least i'm able to hear it
4. my bag's still messy
5. i'm able to hug myself and say "YOU'VE MADE IT"
6. i'm staring back at a geek who stares back even more
7. my sister's shoes still fits me
8. sometimes i wear her shoes to school
9. i can still feel the pain
10. i'm doing my own stuff
11. an ANTHONY HOROWITZ is lying beside my bed
12. my friends are waiting for me
13. I AM FRESH FOR ANOTHER DAY!!
14. my boss is still pending my salary
15. my mum's still nagging me over my room. obviously you dont even need me to describe it
16. someone STILL calls me AH GUA??!! and i'm still enjoying calling her AH PE and everyone else UNCLE AUNTIE~
17. my 9th anniversary with my BEST BUDDIE is going nearer to the 10th every day
18. someone's pissed me off and i'm gonna kick some ass TODAY (in fact everyday)
19. gym and isc's still here
20. I CAN STILL GO TO BED EVERY NIGHT

sigh. i can even go on. what a life. =)

energy bank

2009-08-20T04:15:00.000-07:00

i ditched my blog.
sorry, i ditched my blog for Some time and now i am FINALLY WRITING SOMETHING ON IT!

oh wells. whee...

whee...??

woa hold on. i think there's something else i need here.
PASSION. (peh-sion)
i feel kinda dead since the last day in Los Angeles. aww. maybe i miss the atmosphere and energy in GLYS.
and the dudes and the pretty girls there. =(

MAAN. HOW I WISH.
if only i had misplaced my passport there. =(

oh wells. i'm laughing over Zac's joke again. and George hutang me 10 PUSH UPS.

(i'm gonna ask from him next year) XD

BLOOOOOOODDYY HELLL

2009-07-20T02:03:00.001-07:00

TWO THINGS THAT FREAKING ANNOYED ME SOOO MUCH

1. to all the other senior xueji out there, we have undergone our training camp. we are now learning. we need to grow. we need to learn to become leaders ourselves. we need advises, not critics. we need to discover things ourselves. so dont EVER compare yourselves to us. (no wonder xueji is deterioring, the seniors are still in control of the juniors)

2. Penang is a nice place. dont deny it. jealousy kills. and it surely sucks. and i am adament envious is not in you, right? (and oh ya, we aren't misers)

thats all.

14-7-2009

2009-07-17T03:15:00.000-07:00

ERHERM
...................................................................
ya.....ya... thats a lame title

anyway, haf=ta thank some of the REALLY SPEACIAL people here for making that day the MOST memorable day in my life (sort of, if my memory does not stop functioning la...)

oh ya and forgot to tell you guys, i've just celebrated my 3RD BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!

1. 4s5 classmates for singing a "HAPPY-BIRTHDAY-SONG-FOR-LI-SHING-ONLY" song in 3 languages. and an extra treat from yiwen, bee chian, ah pe, yee li and hui ting. a korean version hahahhh.

2. MICHELLE LIAN for her card and the lunch. DURIAN RUNTUH!!! Mmmmhhh.... (advertising here:her father is a reallyyyy great cook.. ahhh the aroma waffled past my nostrils again) *great imagination from a high time dreamer*

I LOVE YA MICHELLEEEE~

3. the 3P6-Tiess and the others who never forget their old limpeh here..
thanks for the birthday wish!!!

4. AH PE and JIA WEN for the... hehe... STICKERS =P
(told ya i'm still three...)

5. Mr and Mrs Boss, Orang Utan, Jia xin, Yie Ling, Wai Teng, Kar Yee, Jun Ting couple and Judith for this.....

TAAAAA-----DAHHHHHHH
(jud gave me in one of the tutions classes we attended.i was like"whatis the time now?i wanna go home rite now... )
and end up dreaming of MJ troughout the class

6. My family
told them not to buy a cake for me, but they did anyway (aww..... touchy touchy)
*but the cake tasted awful.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzz
*memory failure*
this authors age is unknown

Randomly random postte

2009-07-10T05:52:00.000-07:00

GUESS WHUD??

(g-u-g-u-g-u-e-s-s-...,g-u-e..,s-s-..)

ok i know thats lame....
anyway

i got a chance to, kinda SNeAk inside the DAP's office in perak

OMG GUESS WHAT???

this was what i discovered.....

(no comments on the above pictures)

poor hannie... see both the pro-DAP fellas over there....

the scene... man.. so serious(look at peihan) yay!!! *note : vivian is so HAPPY

anyway i ditched my blog for quite some time

so...

SORRREEE YA BLOGGIE....

and recently i've been missing a lot of things

1. movies that i didnt have the chance to watch..=(

2. my long hair... my surrent hairstyle looks a bit like Jacko when i loosen it. SWT

3. speaking of micheal jackson, I MISS HIM SO MUCH. and his coming-but-uncomplished concert

(oh its so frustrating, i am so emo now...)

4. Yee li's oreo cheese cake... and the pasta.. and the fun we had together

i gained a few pounds for this

MMmmm.... pity i only got to eat 3

5. my skinny figure... wonder how it can grow so... er... FAT in a few months only

6. my old phone... =((

7. YEONG JANE YI

8. the good old 4S5 classroom

9. the good old days in FORM 3

10. the feeling of getting a pair of brand new vincci.. ahh and the smell of it

11. the way HUI TING and JUN YENG used to entertain the class. And us. And they themselves.

12. the quiet old Judith Lai. but i prefer the current 1.

13. when Ipoh used to be very quiet, clean, picturesquere

14. when there aren't so much diseases and flus to worry about

15. when my schoolbag was very, VERY light (kindergarden lo) 6 years had passed

16. when my neighbours get around every year for a trip together

17. the time when there's no political nonsense to scare our tourist away

18. when the earth is still green

19. when my little sister and brother were still so innocent and ready to be bullied. Guess who's being bullied now...

20. THE TIME FOR US 3P6TIES TO CUDDLE AND WATCH MOVIES IN THE AIR-CONNED MUSIC ROOM-- and the time we spent together....

2 weeks.... awayyy

2009-07-07T04:45:00.000-07:00

i realli have no idea where to start
i mean the packing part
and chai wei was doing everything ... seems like everything for us
(hey sorry man, i didnt take part in the inquiring part)
i mean, how to START????
from where?
what?
GAWD
got the injection from jud's dad
lol i tell you
IT HURTS!!!!!!! argh~~ i cnt swim for 1 week i think
(anyway i half-quit swimming since this month)
HAHAH

wish me luck not to brong any souveniors from there... you guys may dread it
promise to talk to me even i m a H1N1 CARRIER
CCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!

Hearts moowalker, thriller, KING OF POP

2009-06-27T08:26:00.000-07:00

dear mr MJ,

needless to say, your

death shocked us, especially me,

who'd been your GREATEST fan since the age of 3

who've been dancing in front of the TV screen with my little brother

and argue over the fact that either you are a FEMALE OR a MALE

cause the look u had was... well an almost perfect, flawless face

and your long hair

and your high pitch "HEE-- HE"

yea... those were the good old days

my daddee used to buy your records

i remembered there was 1 when your face was still coal black

frankly speaking, i prefer your black look
but still, as a no. 1 idol in my heart

i would like to say :

THANKS FOR THE CHILDHOOD MEMORIES........ and songs, and incredible moonwalks

may you find happiness in a new place..... =)

thx for HEALing THE WORLD (my fav)

lawts of love,

li shing, chan

p/s : just saw your concert, dangerously amazing....just look at the number of fans fainting b4 you even started SINGING...... i would probably be sufforcated there too. your moonwalks... GAWD

XD

2009-06-23T23:49:00.000-07:00

NAPOLEANNIE

yea i know thats lame

well, too bored when looking through my mails i guess

(when is Fee replying my mesg??)

GAMBATEH!!!~

2009-06-23T00:24:00.000-07:00

this is what i wanted to tell you
to let you know
we are all here
to give you full support
to let you come back
return
never to leave this world of yours again
here is the world, your very own future
opened-arms
warmly welcome your return

STAY STRONG
YOU'LL BE FINE
EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY

just be stong, we are here

should i post your name?
should i? should i NOT??

my heart, it tells me to.....
hope you are reading this

(i'm glad i followed my heart)

OF MAT SALLEHS AND MANNERS

2009-06-18T01:11:00.000-07:00

went for the US visa interview
dont expect me to type correct english here
i M BOILING!!!!!!!!!! (literally)
just becuase some STUCKED-UP MAT SALLEHS going around saying "WHATS UR PROBLEM??!"
instead of giving answers we want
"read the instructions" he said
hello UNCLE, do you think the instuctions are clear enought for us to understand
and i am a very bright person, and smart people like me break the rules,
not follow some PESKY instructions
so WHEN I ASK YOU SOMETHING, REPLY ME OR ELSE....
n this end up quite inconvenient for my poor father
for he was trying to ask for the slip for courier service
and some pesky MAT SALLEH told him of with a 'WHATS YOUR PROBLEM"
what kind of bloody bussiness is this??

oh ya, that fella aint gud lookin' at all
HE'S WHAT WE CAN SAY, AND ABSOLUTE OBESE PERSON

P/S : jane yi i hope u dun get bullied there =)

VISA INTERVIEW?

2009-06-17T08:11:00.000-07:00

okay here is the story.
when i was back from the library prefects camp on thrusday 11th june
Fee CALLED ME
it was like 8.30pm
dup..dup...dupp
what is she going to tell me??
....
.....
.....
ok here is it : i need to raise rm7000 before july
n it is not EASY i tell you
but i enjoy it
going around asking for sponsors
i sounded like a salesperson
hmm maybe i shud get this job, hey my reputation not bad wad.... =)
.............................................
ok i admit it, i aint good at this
so.. HELP ME~~!!!
if any1 out there noes any datuks or YBs or any organisation that sponsors youth programmes
do leave me a mesg here
thank you in advance of ur help
ur effort is truly appreciate

(see i am SO talented in this... bhahaha)

tagged by JUJU

2009-06-09T07:32:00.000-07:00

1)Name - lishing
2) Male/Female – can I say I m in the middle?? No la juz kidding . female.
3) Were you named after anyone? – er… stars?? idk
4) Does your name mean anything? – very sharp stars. haah
5) Nick Name(s) – do I have any? Hmm.. cnt think of 1 now
6) What do you think you look like name wise? – watz name wise?
7) Date Of Birth – 14th of July
8) Place of Birth and Current Location – ipoh specialist centre. My room.
9) Nationality - Malaysian
10) Astrology Sign - Cancer
11) Chinese Astrology Sign - Rooster
12) Religion – Buddhist.
13) What’s your favorite smell – ahh. A pair of brand new shoes. Whee..
14) Political Position – =.=// dun really und
15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning? – Milo+fresh milk
16) Hair + Eye colour? – brown. Black.
17) Do you look like anyone famous? – I am famous.
18) What do you look like? – call me napoleon.
19) Any unusual talents? – cant say here.
20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous? – ambidextrous. Does fighting with both hands count?
21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other? – straight la. Apathen?
22) What do you do for a living? – war.
23) What do you do for fun? – blogging, drinking 100plus and milk together.
24) What are your favorite art materials to work with? – arts u say?? Aint good at those…
25) What kind of materials would you like to work with? – pens and pencils. Calculator. Maps.
26) Have you met your grandparents? – my dad’s mum. Passed away recently.
27) Boyfriend /Girlfriend? – currently single. Nope I don’t need 1.
28) Crush? – none yet.
29) What celebrity would you date if you could? – haah, most likely a Korean artist.
30) Current worries? – wondering how long does it take to heal my bruises and scars .
31) Favorite online Guy/Girl: junyeng.
32) Favorite place to be? – my room.
33) Least favorite place to be? – public toilets in m’sia.
34) Do you burn or tan? - tan.
35) Ever broken a bone? – yea but that’s long time ago.when i was 7.
36) What is your favorite cereal? – sugar-free cereal.
37) Person you cry with – 学记们??
38) Any sisters – the most annoying 1.
39) Any brothers – the second most annoying 1.
40) Any pets – 2 naughty ones.
41) An illness – always having a strong urge to sleep in class.
42) A Pager – whats a pager?
43) A Personal phone line – siao meh….
44) A cell phone – nope. Mine’s spoilt. Cnt decide which phone to buy yet.
45) A visible birthmark – thigh.
46) A Pool or hot tub – water hose got la….
47) A Car - nope
Describe Your :
48) Personality – I’m napoleon.
49) Driving - won't know yet till next year.
50) Your clothing style – anything that fits. I wont mind wearing funny clothes as long as I like it.
51) Room - applemint
52) What’s missing – MY PHONE!!!!
53) School – aww, just another place to be around
54) Bed – messy and full of worn clothes.
55) Relationship with your parents? – normal. No miracles yet.
56) Believe in yourself – my guts told me to do so.
57) Do you believe in love at first sight? – hell no.
58) Consider yourself a good listener – nope. A crapper instead.
59) Have a future dream that you would like to share? – saving earth with mr Al Gore. haha
60) Get Along with your parents – a must.
61) Save your e-mail conversations – hell no!!
62) Pray –everynight. Almost.
63) Believe in reincarnation – yea.
64) Brush your teeth twice a day? – a must.
65) Like to talk on the phone? - nope , prefer texting.
66) Like to eat? – er.. yea. That’s y my figure isn’t great.
67) Like to exercise? - yes.i love exercise.
68) Like to watch sports? – with my family
69) Sing in the car? – yea. And end up like a dork.
70) What is a dream that you have all the time? – I dunno wad I dreamt.
71) Dream in color? - er...think so.
72) Do you have nightmares? - used to but they've become way less.
73) Sleep with a stuffed animal – yea. A spongebob?
74) Next to you – my homework.
75) On your favorite coffee cup? – dunno. I dun hav 1.
76) On your mouse pad - i don't use a mousepad.
77) Your favorite flavor of gum? - something minty.
78) Favorite deodorant? – urgh. Deodorant.
79) Your dream honeymoon spot – never thought of that
80) Your dream husband/wife – haha. Za dao-nya.
81) Hiding in your closet? – clothes.
82) Under your bed – a GHOST! No la, just dust particles and air.
83) The name of one of your best friends? judith.
84) Your bad time of the day – afternoons. Its freaking hawt!!
85) Your worst fear(s) – being alone in the dark.
86) What’s the weather like – Mediterranean.
87) Your favorite time of year? - holidays.
88) Your favorite holiday? - all.
89) A material weakness? – expensive ones. But they are drop dead gorgeous.
90) The weirdest food or drink that you like:- 100 plus and ice-cream plus raw seaweed
91) At the top of your “to-do list”? – tidy up my desk.
92) The hardest thing about growing up – being older.
93) A pet peeve? – none.
94) Your scariest moment – er… cnt recall any.
95) Your attitude about love? – 爱，分享，关怀。
96) The most outrageous, desperate thing you’ve done to attract the attention of the opposite sex? – huh?? Dun need that haah.
97) The worst feeling in the world – selfishness.
98) The best feeling in the world - freedom.
99) Who sent this to you? – neh… JUDTIH LA
100)Tag more people? – er.. Vivian. Yi wen. Ahpe. Yeeli.jun yeng.

I'M BACKK!! =)

2009-06-06T04:59:00.001-07:00

from n9

全国营

it was totally cool!!!

so with bruises and scars n extra pimples

i m here proud to share the experience there...

(sounded dry) =.=

k fine, here it is:

2nd june 2009

took a bus to seremban at 2.30pm

waited for TWO hours there

hafta pay rm0.30 to visit the loos there

and the loos the aint hygenic at all.. worse than the toilet in china(of cuz la~)

k fine, stop crapping over loos now.

its then i only realised 1 thing: i only brought rm10 there!!
n i've used at least rm5 to eat.. minus the bus fees n tambang taxi.... and the loos

reminds me i gotta pay vivian back rm5

reached smk mantin at 10.30pm

exhausted afta 8 hours travelling

still managed to SAWTT in the classroom, preparing our sketch

oh ya here's something i recorded there:

we were like the NOISIEST there. perak's image po chit. XP

anyway, we slept at 1 in the morning after someone knock on our door for the 21st time complaining we are tooooo noisy

3rd june, 2009

1st day of camp!! met my group of 学记from various states all over west m'sia. n9's girls are gorgeous there. no kidding.

pichas taken b4 registration.

y woke up so early? haih ntg to do heree...

"where's the cute guy i saw yesterday?"
shucks. she's cool. 8婶。

my roomies.

one of the programmes actually need us to search for clues in from chinese literature books. i was like dumbstrucked when the others are craking the code. actually i was drawing circles on the floor. that lasted for 4 hours. slept at 1.30am.

4th june, 2009

water war!!!! the highlight:swimming on the floor. end up injuring myself. chucks..woke up at 1.30am.... to find clues?? again?? a guy actually wined"啊我要睡觉啊。。。很累啊。。blahblahblah”then he YAWNED. i was close to slapping him rite on the face and say :"SHUT UP!!" but instead of doing that, which is actually the rite thing to do for me, wad i did was composed myself and said "hey, we are tired too. yawn with ur mouth close please."

5th june, 2009

3rd day. low spirit. tired body. many leng lui leng zhai. hahas=)military training. only then realised n9 girls ARE strong, beware guys... having fun man!! who has the chance to actually climb ropes, climb onto buildings without using stairs and jump from buildings? us. whee~ i actually shouted 'u jump i jump!' b4 landing on the mattress. highlite of the day : fat boy jumping of a mattress singing' i believe i can fly'. recorded. wondering whether i will appear on youtube.slept at 4am.

sleeping vivian.managed to take this b4 dozing off.

6th June, 2009.

bubye!! cnt leave without taking photos...

ijimae

长睫毛.

amy

谐柔

iron lady.

九派门。
n9 no.1 crazy dude.

he's so CUTEE!!!!

funny man.

my name tag. argh i wet it.

YEAH!!! finally finnish this long post. (clack) oww, my arms.....

to all the perak kadet reporters for sin chew daily, we MUST do our very best to keep the quality in us. realli. unless you want us to be disband =(.

now all i wanted to do is to lie down somewhere and reat.... whewww

twrilling and twrilling

2009-05-29T05:28:00.000-07:00

yea..
thats how my head is now
holidays are here
and b4 it's over i knew, I KNEW i cnt possibly have time to hang out..
i wanted (so badly) to go to jud's house for da cake~~
SOOOO BADLY!!!

the lists of.. ermm task and activities this hols...
1. get my desk tidied(dragged from last hols task 2)
2. read newpapers (preferbly tamil)
3. write articles for NIE
4. arrange physics and account papers in my drawer.. (what a mess there, urgh is that a sweet wrapper?)
5. wash sleeping bag for camps
6. search for 'ipoh white coffeeee'
7. do hols assignments(GOSH) lets look at the list... a)3days 2 nite diary in malay
b)chinese journal
c)english journal
d)physics peka
e)2 x 30 add maths questions
f)2 x 20 maths questions
8.pack for 全国营 and library prefects camp
9.get ready for sukan perak, means search for transport n a place to stay overnite..(gawdd how??)

and.... the list goes on..and on.. and on
and on

and on

and on
and on

yea and on i know i'm boring u guys(i intend to do so)

to you, YES YOU.. plz stop all this. WE KNEW IT.

It's amazing..

2009-05-28T08:20:00.001-07:00

this is unbelievably amazing.... i mean :
a) how can anybody write her own testimonial, adding sauce and pepper in it and end up appearing bloppped headed
well, this author had just did that (hey i need a pet name, call me.... NAPOLEAN haha)

b) this author, with high reputation... had juz washed the SMELLIEST shoes anybody have ever accountered. urghh(napolean washman.. nah)

c) this author is sitting is front of her computer in a lady-like manner(erherm!) waiting for... GOSH DAMN THAT MSN!!

d) it's already 11.30pm and this author NEEDS TO GO TO BED!!! hold on.. is that napolean with eyes like panda??? *damnit it's not working*

life isnt as hard as u think. 11.40pm

pichas

2009-05-26T06:08:00.000-07:00

junting couple (2008)

yaya...crazy post. i know.

candid picha of them hehe

silly twit us... haha

POC : crisis analyse through a limpe's lenses ^^

2009-05-26T04:50:00.000-07:00

wheww...
long title rite?
welll, i dunno what striked me but when i sat down in front of my computer,
i thought of writing bout 1 of the most.. erherm.. 'prominent' person in 3p6 and 4s5
...
.....
guess u guys have figured it out dy(see title)
it's ...
it's..
IT'S.....
............................~~
k fine, its CHONG HUI TING
for those who know her.. u probably noe how FUNNY she is
for those who does not, U AINT AS LUCKY AS U MAN!!!

she might had given herself high expectations in scoring good results
but for me
she doesnt hafta do that
cuz she has something few ppl have : A BIG MOUTH
though not an intelligent 1, she manage to argue
unlike some of those who only noe how to SWALLOW BOOKS BLINDLY... urgh
she was the best debater in 2008, i m surprised when she was not selected for the school team this year
hmm.. the main reason may be she only has the gift of the gap
and not some skills in showing off...
nah... yea..
in 3p6, her best buddy is cheong junsu yeng
without 1 of them, the class may not b as lively as b4
its amazing how they can complete each other's sentences JUZ LIKE THAT *click*
it's like they've done their rehersal
cool
the good old time seems to fade a bit
aww....
but they probably dunno that they still have the same thoughts bout sth
EXACTLY =)
i love this couple XD

saranghae junting couple~~

no handphone for A WEEK

2009-05-22T06:14:00.000-07:00

gosh..
how could this possibly happened to me?
ARGH~~~
i cnt survive another week lar... plz help me =(

AND OH YA
tat 'fella' (picha spotted during accounts exam)
GOSH
cant she juz posibbly leave me alone???
i know i've took her *cough* contaminated book
but i kept forgotten bout that n 4got to return to her
GOASH
how she bugged me...
the WHOLE damn week i hafta hind from her
GARH~!!!
and she doesnt wans anybody to return to her.... she wants ME to return it personally
the reason??
she has something (urgh) that shud not b seen in da book. (that's y its contaminated)

i think i'm obsessed with archie's song...
ahahah

ACCOUNTS --deadly trappe

2009-05-14T04:02:00.000-07:00

ok

so i've finnish my exams

i am so so so dead now... garh~

the prinsip perakaunan has a total of 2 parts here.

u c, they want 2 seperate paper 2 from paper 1. and that aint smart...

cuz they are following the spm system, which is 'NOT SMART AT ALL'

sigh,

anyway, this is what i did during the paper :

PAPER 1

7.33am - start

8.05am - finnish

8.06am - stare out of the wind.. er.. door..

8.10am - turn around n saw the prefects' board. full of their pichas. SAW 'HER' PICHA.

(gar, gar, puke)

8.15am - check my answers for the 3RD time.. yawnss

8.30am - "tiga minit lagi, check balik. jgn tidur~~"

8.33am - "okayyy, berhenti menulis. hantar sekarang!!"

PAPER 2

8.45am - start

8.55am - wat's that?? it sounded familiar....

9.10am - eii.. y not balanced 1?? stupid penyata kkk .... damnit....
eei....
haiyo, nvm la come back to this later la...

9.20am - struggling among the papers... imagine that...

9.40am - quick. quick. "5 minit lagi" OH WOULD U PLZ SHUT THE HELL UP??!!!

9.45am - reluctantly hand in unfinished papers .. =(

(1 hour and 50 minutes later)

'ALAMAK!!! 4got to write my name on da papers!!!..."
...
...
......
gosh... how woulld i fare??

accounts

2009-05-12T04:24:00.000-07:00

argh.. account
i know some of them is probably relaxing and holidaying dy.. exams' almost over...
man i know i m silly in da 1st place, taking accounts as an extra subject
and obviously i m not a gifted accountant
but still...... I AM SO DAMN ENVY OF U GUYSS!!!!!!!
i hav nil idea of da principles of accounting.... n i hav no idea wad m i gonna scribble inside da papers... LOL

argh.. ARGH!!!! i guess i need to tembak that day ... for some 'markah kasiiihan' lol XD

(no subject)

2009-05-06T02:56:00.000-07:00

i am dissapointed
i am dissapointed
i am dissapointed
i feel hopeless
it've been 2 days
i'm still no over it
DANG
it is worse than breaking off with sb

blogging SECRETLY

2009-05-04T02:08:00.000-07:00

i m officially addicted to blogging now.. help....
btw i have nothing to crap here except i m a bit dissapointed when i found out that i failed to receive a scholarship to usa for the summit... argh..=(
my best buddie judith cnt make it too... guess v hafta wait... for sth great..... again...
i dunno bout pheinee, chai wei, jesmin, yuen si and si wei. i hope 1 of them got the scholarship there....

a picha of dolphins.. dunno y i upload there.. haha

2009-05-02T06:10:00.000-07:00

WASAI MAN!!!i know exams are around da cornerand i know this is a SUPER GOOD timing for me to finally figured out wad blogging ishahabut i m extremely happy!!a sense of achievement gripped by my fingerslol